Threshold

I am finding myself on the brink of a brand-spanking-new adventure. I just read over the contents of this blog (started over 3 years ago...I can hardly believe it!) and I am in awe of how faithful God has been to me. He sees the big picture, when all I could see at various points of time throughout these years were my hardships or struggles, looming bigger than I.

I don't know what these next 6 weeks hold. I have fluctuated between pure excitement, bubbling over and threatening to spill over into the lives of others - - - and my own insecurities, haunting me and weighing me down.

I am so often the one who holds myself back. I don't want to give in to the lies anymore. I am sick of listening to those voices. God says differently, and I desperately want His truth to lodge itself deep in the recesses of my heart.

No. Matter. What.

I am excited to be the living hands and feet of Jesus this summer. I don't know the challenges it holds. There is a degree of seriousness with which I find myself approaching this summer. I am tentative about it, because I feel the heavy weight of the ways in which these 6 weeks could drastically change my life and my future.

I am hoping for that. To gain a sense of direction in regards to the next steps God has for me. I was telling a friend the other day that my future seems murky: there is something there, but either the waters have not yet stilled enough for me to make out the image under the surface, or I am not sufficiently close enough to it yet. I am okay with this. Let me not forget: the image is still there. It exists. I don't know its intricacies and details, coloring and patterns quite yet. But I know it will all come together soon: the snatched glances and blurry outlines. He always gives me a clear vision and sure footing. I have always had a keen sense of when He has made the way smooth and clear for me- whether it be in a speaking engagement, project, or decision.

This trip, this internship has been that way for sure. Smooth sailing from day one. Steady growth and now I am but waiting to throw all my stuff in a suitcase, board a plane, make my connecting flights, and step foot onto the sandy terrain of La República Dominicana as I simultaneously step into what He has graciously prepared for me this summer.

I invite you to join me on the journey, friends.